My biggest “Aha moment” (so far) came to me towards the end of 2016 – it was when I started noticing that a lot of my set in stone principles are actually evolving to be more fluid, to be more flexible (of course, there are certain exceptions to this).This obviously came as quite a surprise to me, simply because I’ve always been quite rigid in the way I perceived life, very black & white.
I’ve been realising that life is never set in stone, everything is constantly changing, everything comes in phases, time keeps passing us by, days change to night and then night changes to day, even the sky – if you sat under the sky for a while, you will notice that the clouds keep moving and changing, nothing ever stays the same, and doesn’t physics tell us exactly that about matter as well?
Anyway, over the course of certain experiences, I’ve begun to understand that NOTHING is constant, everything keeps changing, including (and most importantly) ourselves.
Am I the same girl I was 10 years ago – No (and thank god for that!)
Does this mean I was bad/wrong 10 years ago – again No, I was the best version of myself in the circumstances which existed 10 years ago.
With my world constantly changing and evolving, I have had to adapt and evolve as well (despite my own resistance), if not for anything else, just to be able to keep up.
Such have been the nature of my Aha moments, the ones which tended to sneak up on me, most often results of quiet reflection. I guess that’s just the thing about Aha moments – it is that you never realise it at the time of the actual event, at the time you are more focused on surviving the thing that leads to the Aha moment. I guess that’s how connecting the dots work. It can only be done backwards.
My latest and most profound one is that Life is transient, no two moments are alike, what is it about a river never being able to touch the same water twice? I think life is like that as well. No two moments are alike, no two circumstances are alike, heck, we are not alike ourselves under different circumstances.
So if life is this temporary, and this ephemeral, should we hold on to our anger and pettiness? That is the question I find myself asking when my most human quality of pettiness takes over my personality in certain situations. There are a few things that can still manage to bring out the worst, most petty parts of me, and with this new realisation I wonder if any of those things that make me feel petty are even worth my energy, in the grander scheme of things.
I haven’t yet figured out all the answers, of course, sometimes I just like reveling in realisations which leave my perspectives altered forever…
Today is one such day…
Until next time, stay safe & be good.