One of the patterns I have noticed is when life builds me up only to disappoint me in the end (if that is what it is), my emotions go blank because heavens know I despise wasting anything, especially time and energy, and the inevitable writers block hits. Words don’t work unless you feel them. Defense mechanism for each of us works differently, I suppose.
The only way to get over anything is to acknowledge it and release it, and once that is done, the beauty around us becomes visible again. I try to look for signs, something that makes the ugliness you just endured, worth it. Because anything in contrast it feels more stark, like a spark of euphoric joy after a prolonged period of being numb. Like coming out of a movie theater, and facing a moment of blinding light of the world. The light has always been there, its only up to us to look for it when we are finally ready. When you look for signs, signs will come for you. What is it about what you seek, seeking you right back.
Sadly, I have been hearing news about ghastly incidents from my circles these past few days, news of 2 untimely deaths being the most extreme. And although these aren’t people who affect me personally, death is always a tragic reminder that life is meant for the living, feeling and savoring the good, bad & the ugly.
The sheer uncertainty of life is the equalizer which connects us all, and it makes me want to always train myself to look for beauty, because it is all so deliciously fleeting. Like when a butterfly flits past you on a summer day. It lasts just a few seconds, and if you’re me, it’ll make your soul dance with joy that the Universe just gave you a little wink to let you know it’s all going to be okay somehow.
When life feels too overwhelming, look for signs.
Peace & Love