Have you ever noticed how frail our inner peace is, one minute we find ourselves fighting with the world with all our might for someone, and the next minute sees this very person fighting with us for the world. For me the highest form of love is when I pray for someone, and often its those same people who’ve left meat the edge of a precipice. Not sure if that made any sense, but my point is this, when put our whole and soul into something (or someone), we set ourselves up for disappointment. Sounds bleak and cynical (I know), but the sooner we accept this, the more we can preserve our own inner peace. After years of praying for people who only turned around and disappeared when you have needed them most, you can’t help but be a bit more guarded.
This year, which I was utterly hopeful for, has been stressful right from the start, and in any downtime that I’ve had, I’ve been thinking about my various friendships and relationships. Some have lasted a few months, some which lasted years, but in the end when things fall apart, heartbreak is inevitable.
But such is life, I suppose. Not all our relationships are meant to last from start to finish, some are friends for a season, some are friends for a reason (the word matlabi comes to mind), some are friends who love you even when they’re not near (life!), and some even when they’re right next to you aren’t friends at all.
I kinda blame my own sentimental heart sometimes, and sometimes I forgive it. Because in the very end, all we really have is ourselves, and a few fleeting moments with people who cross our path. Sometimes that is enough, and when its not we become writers.
My own introspection this past week has brought me to this point where the ONLY thing on my mind is forgiveness. Forgive everyone, including yourself (especially yourself), and try not to be too disappointed by people. After all, we are all only human.
Peace & Good vibes