Random Musings

Random Musings

Have you ever noticed how frail our inner peace is, one minute we find ourselves fighting with the world with all our might for someone, and the next minute sees this very person fighting with us for the world. For me the highest form of love is when I pray for someone, and often its those same people who’ve left meat the edge of a precipice. Not sure if that made any sense, but my point is this, when put our whole and soul into something (or someone), we set ourselves up for disappointment. Sounds bleak and cynical (I know), but the sooner we accept this, the more we can preserve our own inner peace. After years of praying for people who only turned around and disappeared when you have needed them most, you can’t help but be a bit more guarded.

This year, which I was utterly hopeful for, has been stressful right from the start, and in any downtime that I’ve had, I’ve been thinking about my various friendships and relationships. Some have lasted a few months, some which lasted years, but in the end when things fall apart, heartbreak is inevitable.

But such is life, I suppose. Not all our relationships are meant to last from start to finish, some are friends for a season, some are friends for a reason (the word matlabi comes to mind), some are friends who love you even when they’re not near (life!), and some even when they’re right next to you aren’t friends at all.

I kinda blame my own sentimental heart sometimes, and sometimes I forgive it. Because in the very end, all we really have is ourselves, and a few fleeting moments with people who cross our path. Sometimes that is enough, and when its not we become writers.

My own introspection this past week has brought me to this point where the ONLY thing on my mind is forgiveness. Forgive everyone, including yourself (especially yourself), and try not to be too disappointed by people. After all, we are all only human.

Peace & Good vibes




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This is what happens when you let only your emotions write a post, and especially when some of my emotions can come in waves (and some like tsunamis) –

Have you ever been idealistic about life, the world and the universe, and then some after the passage of time (say a few decades), you sort of feel like the odds are always stacked against you? Or that the thoughts you once held dear, you now feel disenchanted by?

All these thoughts seem way more daunting when you believe in the law of attraction (always working) because you now are sending out less than the highest vibrations to the universe…

Which brings me to my next dilemma- if everything in our lives is what we have attracted into our being, does it mean, that even without realising it, we are emitting energies that do not serve us?

it’s a bit of an existential conundrum.. very counter-intuitive. So how to feel less disenchanted with everything??

The point is, sometimes no matter how rational, balanced or collected we are, our emotions get to us. For me, when I don’t adequately vent or release pent up energies, they build up, slowly and insidiously at first,until it gets to a point that at the smallest provocation (sometimes not even provocations at all), something snaps. My emotions take hold of me till it is all acknowledged and released, sometimes taking days when I walk around with the proverbial grey cloud over my head.

It feels like an unhealthy pattern to me, because the truth is, ideally we should never hold on to negativity, because it soon turns toxic and manifests in different forms, like lowered resistance towards allergies or common colds, stress pimples, etc. But Life is such that sometimes there isn’t enough time or enough energy left at the end of the day to do this work (I call it work because it is a deliberate thing), heck, some days I barely have enough energy to take off my makeup before I crash.

The point I am trying to make is that sometimes we are on the brink of exhaustion and we don’t even realise it, and it comes off looking like disenchantment.

So I deal with it the best way I know how – I write about it. Lets face it writing develops us as much as we develop it. It is powerful and insightful, and at times downright necessary.

Here’s to a Friday without too much upheavals.

Peace & Love



CatchLight- Don’t hate Meditate

Meditation – one of the best things ever.

Like most, I used to think meditation was difficult, that one needed to be a wise old sage sitting in the Himalayas to be able to do it properly, and then I realized that meditation is just a way to allow yourself to be present in the moment. Its that simple.

Meditation is Just like Yoga – after my yoga practice, I’d feel really calm and collected, like I could accomplish anything. Never realizing it was also a form of meditation, because the practice of yoga is about focusing on your breathing and allowing your body to settle into the asana. To be fully present in the moment.

Its only recently that I found the most effective meditation tool (and one of my favorites) called Zen12 created by Karl Moore (Thank you Karl, I will forever be grateful to you for creating this tool), and it has changed my life. I don’t even remember where/how I found this, but I did. And boy am I glad.

The biggest challenge for me when I started was to sit still, and slow down the flow of thoughts, and eventually completely quiet the mind. I’d often fidget, or start thinking of the things I needed to do after the “meditation”, or things I needed to do that day, or worse I’d start thinking of all the past experiences (especially the bad ones). And obviously get very frustrated.

But with Zen12 all I need to do is, choose my audio file, put on my earphones and just relax. I try to listen to myself breathe as the audio plays on, and 12 minutes later I feel refreshed and collected, much like my yoga practice. I try to do this every day, sometimes multiple times a day, on especially volatile days.

One of the biggest benefits of meditation that I have noticed in life is, I am a lot calmer in situations. Things don’t get under my skin quite as easily as they did before. In my mind, I am certain that there is time for accomplishing everything I am meant to.

Would I recommend meditation to people, YES (a million times, yes!)

If you are someone who describes yourself as “busy” or “stressed”, I’d day give it a go. What have you got to lose?

The best kind to start with are guided meditation, because it tells you exactly what to do, and you just need to follow along. Its the best one to start with, especially if you have never meditated a day in your life. There are thousands of videos online, when you search for the keywords guided meditation.

It is one of the biggest life hacks that I can share with the world. You will start to notice the change, sometimes after the very first practice.

So go on, try it why don’t you. And don’t forget to let me know how you like it.

Peace & Love



Sometimes life throws you massive curve balls, when you’re minding your own business, trying to live peacefully, work, take care of your responsibilities, suddenly the ugliness of the world is thrown at you, and whether you like it or not, it is suddenly your business to deal with.

When this happens, there are only two options (at least, the way I see it):

  1. You can ignore it and hope that troubles go away on their own (they rarely do); or
  2. You can grab it by the *insert word of your choice* and handle it, and make it go away.

I’m from the school of thought which believes in the latter. If something has to be done, its best done asap before you let fear/frustrations get the better of you.

Having said that, I have come to realize (more so than ever), that life also gives you unexpected beauty, kindness and compassion every step of the way, and sometimes its as simple as a beautiful sky, a quiet moment to savor unfiltered beauty, and if you are too busy focusing on the curve balls, you’ll miss all the good.

It is true what they say, counting your blessings instantly uplifts and changes your day.


Last evening, perhaps like every evening, the sun, the clouds and the trees decided to stop me in my tracks while I was rushing through my day. And for that I am most grateful I got this moment.

Time to slow down and take a snapshot (in your mind or one with a camera) just for you to go back to when ugliness rears its head.