This is what happens when you let only your emotions write a post, and especially when some of my emotions can come in waves (and some like tsunamis) –
Have you ever been idealistic about life, the world and the universe, and then some after the passage of time (say a few decades), you sort of feel like the odds are always stacked against you? Or that the thoughts you once held dear, you now feel disenchanted by?
All these thoughts seem way more daunting when you believe in the law of attraction (always working) because you now are sending out less than the highest vibrations to the universe…
Which brings me to my next dilemma- if everything in our lives is what we have attracted into our being, does it mean, that even without realising it, we are emitting energies that do not serve us?
it’s a bit of an existential conundrum.. very counter-intuitive. So how to feel less disenchanted with everything??
The point is, sometimes no matter how rational, balanced or collected we are, our emotions get to us. For me, when I don’t adequately vent or release pent up energies, they build up, slowly and insidiously at first,until it gets to a point that at the smallest provocation (sometimes not even provocations at all), something snaps. My emotions take hold of me till it is all acknowledged and released, sometimes taking days when I walk around with the proverbial grey cloud over my head.
It feels like an unhealthy pattern to me, because the truth is, ideally we should never hold on to negativity, because it soon turns toxic and manifests in different forms, like lowered resistance towards allergies or common colds, stress pimples, etc. But Life is such that sometimes there isn’t enough time or enough energy left at the end of the day to do this work (I call it work because it is a deliberate thing), heck, some days I barely have enough energy to take off my makeup before I crash.
The point I am trying to make is that sometimes we are on the brink of exhaustion and we don’t even realise it, and it comes off looking like disenchantment.
So I deal with it the best way I know how – I write about it. Lets face it writing develops us as much as we develop it. It is powerful and insightful, and at times downright necessary.
Here’s to a Friday without too much upheavals.
Peace & Love