#Bookstagram 7: So many books, so little time.

#Bookstagram – So many books, so little time. 

One of the things I do every year, almost involuntarily, is set year-end goals.  Come December and suddenly there’s a sense of urgency in the air, like I have so much to do, and just not enough time to do it all.  Normally I have weight related goals that get majorly fussed about, like I want to fit into a certain dress for the Christmas party or have a certain waist size by NYE, and of course, a plan to make it all happen (I’m nothing if not a woman with a plan!) – workout 15 minutes more each day, maybe avoid eating out altogether till 24th December, avoid desserts, skip that second course, etc. – very specific stuff that seldom work out that way.

This year my ticking clock (hahaha, I’m so pleased with myself for that) is urging me to tackle my TBR.  I find myself starting new books, even before I finish the ones I’m currently reading.  Simply because I want to read many more books before I’m ready to say goodbye to 2017.  Despite my inclination to mono-task, I’ve caught myself reaching for every book that catches my attention.  Its definitely the end of the year urgency.

Its all so silly, but whats life without a bit of whimsy (I’m assuming everyone gets the reference).  I know for a fact that days are going to pass one by one whether we’re ready or not, and we’ll one day find ourselves in 2018, and nothing would’ve changed (not really anyway).  I’m not buying the whole new year, new me spiel, because we will still pretty much be the same person in 2018 or 2020 or the years to come… (maybe older & wiser (hah!), or happier & more appreciative (one can certainly hope), or more grumpy & wrinkly (sigh), or everything depending on the day).  But somehow, this human created concept of time – hour, date, month, year, decade – puts a sense of urgency, like I have to outrun something.  And for the life of me, I don’t know what I am running from (or towards), or what I am supposed to outrun, all I know is there’s that need to do everything before the next year rolls by.

I don’t know why exactly this is, but I notice it every year with mild amusement, and this year my plan is to finish reading all the books I’ve started reading this month, and that’s about 5 books.  Well, its a good thing I’m doing the Weekend Readathon soon.

Happy Reading!!

xo

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Countdown

In exactly one month I will be celebrating a milestone birthday, the big Three-Oh, and unsurprisingly I am completely freaked out! I felt exactly this way when I was turning 20 (and now I think, awww how cute, that I was actually worried about turning 20!), when I realized I’ll never be a teen ever again, and THAT was a decade ago. Where does the time go?

Milestone birthdays always give me a bittersweet feeling, it makes me feel like time is passing me by so quickly, even though it happens one day at a time, and I always countdown big events, it still manages to catch me by surprise and I can’t help but wonder how I got here.

Anyway, after the surprise (shock) has subsided, I generally tend to feel a little sad that perhaps some of the most fun moments are behind me, but I hope to heaven that I’m wrong and whats coming is way better than what I’ve left behind. After all life is about moving forward, even if we do sometimes look back just to reminisce for a little while.

Nonetheless, my 20s have been (and still is for another month) a very memorable decade, so many firsts, so many memories made, so many epiphanies, its been wonderful so far, and as I sit here making plans for the coming month, I can’t help but think of some of my favorite moments of the last decade.

In my 20s, I –

  1. learnt how to drive;
  2. got my first tattoo;
  3. met my Best friend/sister in law school – I don’t know what I’d do without her;
  4. graduated from Law School;
  5. got my first job;
  6. had my BIG heartbreak, and survived it;
  7. re-connected with my other best friend, after almost 10 years (or more) of having lost touch – and boy am I blessed to have met him again;
  8. reconnected with many many old friends;
  9. drove in my first TSD car rally and won;
  10. battled with numerous insecurities and overcame most of them;
  11. did my first bungee jump;
  12. drove a tractor;
  13. started this blog – my own little corner of the internet, which gives me so much joy;
  14. tried my hand at teaching – a lifelong dream;
  15. finally learnt to swim;
  16. solo-traveled for the first time, don’t get what the fuss is all about, I enjoy travelling with loved ones more;
  17. learnt some pretty major “life-lessons”;
  18. started to actually enjoy good White Wines – and even have a favorite one;
  19. started painting more, and I realized I love it – maybe this will turn into something more substantial someday, only time will tell;
  20. learnt to crochet – and now making a scarf for myself;
  21. dealt with chronic back pain, and realized the biggest thing needed for recovery is TLC;
  22. learnt that I can perform miracles when I am kinder to myself, and forgave myself for all the times I wasn’t; and
  23. finally fell in love with myself – and started my life long romance..

I’m sure there are many more of my favorite highlights of the last decade and numerous “full-circle” moments, but for now this is a pretty good list!

I am looking forward to the next month to cherish these last few days of being a 20-something, I obviously intend to make the most of it.

Life sure is full of surprises, ten years ago I would’ve never believed this would be my life, and despite all the challenging moments, I would never change anything. I get to wake up as me, and that is pretty spectacular.

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Until next time, embrace your life. This day will never happen again, make the most of it.

Love more.

xo

31 Oct – Time to Celebrate

As one more month rolls by, I can’t help but feel a little sad that in 2 months, 2016 will be over. The concept of time is only becoming more and more prominent and every time I spend time with people I like, the first and last thing on my mind is that this is a moment that will be remembered. It helps me be more present in the “here and now”.

2016 has been a mixed bag so far, with a lot of moments that have forced me to face reality, and I’m sure it’s not just with me. But then so was 2015, for me, by the end of October in 2015, I remember thinking I’m done with 2015!, and 2016 is going to be something amazing. But the more I think about it, the more I feel like I have it backwards. Life shouldn’t be about waiting for an event in the near/distant future where everything will magically be perfect, where stars align and life is suddenly picture perfect. The ONLY life we’re sure of, is happening right now. With all the mess, the complications and everything wonderful as well.

So lets go ahead and celebrate it.

Cherish the here and now, love the people around you, call your friends who you’ve been missing and make plans (Actual plans where you meet and spend time), travel, do things that bring you joy and don’t for one second apologize for it.

If you love clicking selfies and sharing them, go and do it.

If you love reading a book, and lose yourself in the world of fantasy that only books can give you, go and do it.

Go and travel as much as you can…

You get the point…

I’ve been trying to live this way, more so than before, and people around me have started to notice it. In the last week, I’ve been told, not once, but twice, that I look so happy! And you know what, I am. It has to be my most favorite compliment yet.

So here’s the only thing I am trying to say in this post, Celebrate NOW. Whether you’re celebrating Diwali, Halloween, a good hair day, or maybe just the fact that you’re having a great day in general. Celebrate now, and make more memories that you can carry with you.

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Until next time, Happy Day.

xo

On time…

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The most common thing that features in my everyday life is my schedule, and being a lawyer, tracking how I spend time is one of the first things I was taught. What does TIME really mean, I see clocks everywhere, on my computer, my phone, on the wall in front of me, and even on my wrist.. At any point, I always have a way to know the time or day or year it is..

Yes I know that our time here is finite, and yes, I also know that there is no way to turn back time. yet, there are things in my everyday life that I find myself procrastinating.. I’m not talking about big, earth shattering decisions that generally tend to be given a later spot in the list of priorities (lets face it, it can be daunting), it is even in the little things, for example, if I have to review 2 contracts for the day, and I have scheduled one for each half of the day, I usually start by making a detailed list of ALL the things that have to get done in each half of the day.. And mentally earmark time slots for each of these activities. And right from the start, I have an idea of how my day will go. So much so, that at a recent interview, I claimed that time management was one of my biggest strengths.

Because of this system, on most days, I can be the most efficient person ever, but on other days, I find myself pushing the task to the next time slot just because I’m missed the mark of starting that activity by about 10 minutes… I feel like this throws me off balance, and messes with the things that I would like to accomplish for the day. If there is one thing I hate, it is to miss deadlines.

Having said that, I often wonder how this doesn’t bother me as much as it should for the big (read: world shattering) things in my life. I mean obviously I know that there are certain things I would like to accomplish during my time here. Like start my own business and successfully run it (for a long time), take up teaching, write more, travel more, etc… And yet, I haven’t really made a plan on getting these things done, and for a list maker such as myself, that is surprising!

As days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years turn into decades, in certain aspects I feel stuck, like I’m way behind schedule. And I need to stop procrastinating and at least make a plan for myself.

Which reminds me of one of the most obscure conversations I’ve had with one of my former clients which also turned out to be one of the most insightful, was about the secret to success, and he (an accomplished businessman) said that the secret to success is the ability to make quick decisions, because life will always snowball choices at you before even you’re ready, and sometimes the choices come your way only once.

So having the ability to just go with it, and not procrastinate, is one of THE BIGGEST revelations yet.

If the right time isn’t now, then when? If I keep preparing for something and never actually do it, being ready or feeling “ready”for something may never actually happen, unless I take the damn leap and do everything that I seem to keep putting off..

Life will keep passing us by, and in that lies its beauty. Its like a moment that has passed by will never return, and no amount of money in the world can buy back the moments that have turned into memories.

Now is literally all we can be certain of… So here’s my Note to Self: If its worth doing, just do it already.

Until next time..

Tick Tock.

xo